But God, I am right!!!!
Psalms 34:9, O fear the Lord, you His saints [revere and worship Him]! For there is no want to those who truly revere and worship Him with godly fear.
I had a rough few days of feeling like my joy, my security in Christ and my peace disappeared. I can trace back that it started with feeling slighted or disrespected by someone I admire – an authority. My peace and comfort seemed immediately shaken. I later had an argument with this person trying to get my feelings out and now my joy and even security in Christ was shaken as I said, “But God, I am right.”
I then had another incident with someone else in the short period of days and I could tell this was spreading. I feel myself pulling to that darker depressive side of me that I must work to keep pressed down. In my prayer this morning I finally humble myself to say, “Ok God, I don’t care about what happened. I don’t care about the offenses, I just want things right with you again.” Instantly, I can feel the heat of anger and depression fade. Peace is filling me and I am breathing slower, more fully.
Isn’t it funny that when we think we have an issue with people, it is really an issue with Christ. Let me explain: for me to be hurt, I had to move Christ over and place that person in His place in my life. Not that I was praying to them, but I gave them a place of respect to destroy my peace, to take away my joy and to act in ways that were offensive to God (arguing or murmuring). I forgot they were human. I expected they would be perfect, treat me justly, have an everlasting love for me and never wrong or harm me. I forgot about my duty of forgiveness, forbearing one another and praying for them. Yes I was right, but I was so wrong!!!
Psalms 34:12-14, What man is he who desires life and longs for many days, that he may see good? Keep your tongue from evil and your lips from speaking deceit. Depart from evil and do good; seek, inquire for, and crave peace and pursue (go after) it!
Just in humbling myself to realize that, I can feel peace, joy, patience, and comfort all returning. Thank you, Christ Jesus,!!!! You are my life and the lover of my soul.